just wondering

I got on the scale this morning with a little more hope than usual.  And, guess what?  I weigh two pounds more than I did nine days ago when I started this sugar fast.  Two pounds.  I haven't gained that much weight in one week since the second trimester of my third pregnancy.  Immediately I thought, "what's the point," which got me thinking about a whole lot of things.

Is it truly a Lenten fast when you have ulterior motives, say, a better body?  And is it okay to use Lent as a excuse to break bad habits?

When is it okay to break a fast?  Surely, if I am experiencing the effects of low blood sugar, say dizziness, fatigue, headaches, I should be able to eat something, right?  Or is the point to rely on God's grace in the face of my own physical weakness?

And here's something my children want to know:  if you talk incessantly about fasting, and point out to everyone you know that you are fasting is that the right attitude?  Or am I just tooting my own horn?

Food for thought....