I always thought it was fitting she was born on the first day of spring; it suits her somehow. (Mark wanted me to "hold it in" just a little bit longer so she could be born at the exact moment when winter turned to spring.)
The year Amelia was born was cold and snowy. I know this because I remember the doctor telling me many pregnant women went into premature labor during snowstorms. I knew there was little hope of that. And I was right.

That first spring is something of a blur to me. What I remember most are the good things: taking long walks in the park, sitting in an outdoor cafe while she napped; sizing up playmates at the playground; staring into her perfectly round face for hours. And smiling at the grace of God.
Sometimes I wonder when, exactly, she grew up. When did I stop counting her age in weeks and months? When did I lose track of her exact weight and height and her shoe size? When did she stop needing me to pick her friends and arrange her playdates? And when did I stop dreaming Ipanema dreams for her? (Have I?)
One thing is for sure from that day to this, from birth to age seventeen: there are few people who can make me laugh the way Amelia can; few people I would rather spend the afternoon with, walking through the park, sitting in an outdoor cafe, staring into her beautiful, still perfectly round face; smiling.
It's like a ray of sunshine on the first day of spring.
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